Achievement in May 2005
Pierce my Left ear 01 May 2005
Excluded in NDP 2005 11 May 2005
Been selected for the Sec 2 NYAA Leadership Camp 11 May 2005
Brought a Book wrote by Neivelle Tan beside that signature was also signed on the book read it between 2 days.

30 May 2005
After reborn in this humorous world

The past 4 to 5 days I have been going to town.. juz for no reasons
Thursday went to the Le Meridian Singapore to used the internet, which dont know why it cost $5 when $3 per hours
Friday Went to Clarke Quay to repair my Laptop beside that also think to repair my mobile, however it rather later so just went Dhoby Ghaut – Plaza Sing..
Saturday went out with Derek (not me okay, is another person, just have same name but different surname.) to ChinaTown, walk around New Bridge Road.. Beside that he also meet his friend at Apollo Ctr. After which we go ?? And eat supper.. After that went to UOB Plaza.. See the river side.. And the next morning then go home..

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4IN1 Took between 23-29 May 2005_2 

4IN1 Took between 23-29 May 2005 

This My MYE Result..
One word to describe S**K 

26 May 2005

The day when I step in to the world,
I know I am very luck.
Out of the swarm of millions of sperms,
I am the one who got into the egg.

But slowly I realize,
It not easy and smooth,
To achieves my goals,
Especially when time goes by.

I learn how to take failure,
And set back when it needed.

But I know,
No matter how good I am,
There always a positive,
And negative of a person.

I may be somehow better then others.
On the other hand,
I will still lose in the labyrinth.
The only way to win back my confidents,
Is to bounce back.

Even thought I have tried my best to get someone,
It always ends out to be despondency.
Not a single time,
My relationship can last.
Not a singles time,
I can get the person I really love.

I lost in to many games.
Deeply in my bottom of my heart,
I am ridiculously knackered.
I really hope the god of HELL,
Can end my life.

I have thought over the week,
There nothing calls LOVE in my mind.


Compost by Derek Chew before his last breath.

19 May 2005
The Results…

Yesterday was in a rush.. Any blog only so dunno whether any mistake a nt..
Just to add on yesterday.. I remember that J hook my hand on the way back to class (another gay act..).
For today while we were correcting our mistakes made in paper 1, BX had found a mistake which our maths teacher mark wrong.. Anyway it the concept wrong, made by the teacher.. So I was also able to get the answer but I was not able to get back my marks, just because I leaved my answer in fraction.. What the different between 5.2 cm and 5 1/2 cm are they still the same.. omg is like 2 marks gone!!
Below is the result that I got after 9days of examination, horrendous:

MYE result 

18 May 2005
The Luck of Lucks

Almost all those subjects that I pass was all just pass..
Math – 53/100
Add math – 33/66
Physic – 25/50
And for add math the paper was actually 70 marks. But due to question error and we wont be able to solve the question and the 4 marks was minus.. And so end up passing.
Then for today BB P?? Shooting I was quite lucky..
The 1st and 2nd shoot was just shoot at ur target.. With 10 bullets
And the 3rd shoot was to shoot the 5 tin cans with 6 bullets.. And u know what.. I just used 5 bullets to shoot the 5 tin cans.. God bless
But however when come to group competition we lost.. But anyway just a game..
End here.. Bye cya..

17 May 2005
Panic

School have given me more and more panic..
My blood pleasures have increases rapidly..
As for today relies of results it deteriorate me more..
Out of the five papers, I only able to pass 1 (Pathetic).. And it was not as well done as expected..
I fell very pressurised for the next four subjects.. If I would not able to pass 3 more.. Then most probable I will retain or drop to Normal Technical..
As what was written in Black and White, no matter what the results is, I must accept it and try better next time.. But there is no academic encouragements given.. As a result there no mind of resilience and perseverance in me..
Today we have to practices our Stand and Deliver for tomorrow true performance.. It drag from 2 pm to 6 pm then we can go home.. In my point of view, I did not commented as much as last year.. I getting more and more retarded..
As for today hike at MacRitchie, quite shattered. Too long never been exercises.. But also some fun added to the walk.. I was able to hold a cute boi boi hand in my class and it was so suddenly he came and hold me.. He also act like dancing.. He extremely cute lo.. But this doesnt last.. Just only for a short while, but then I still enjoy the short period.. (So gay).. This act was because I was using my hand to hook a gal in my class la.. As I said we also sister mah (this ‘sister’ was given to me by a lost of gal).. Why I cant hold your hand.. (My class gal like to hold hand de.. Dunno why so influences..).. Then the Malay guy was like saying.. Your stead ah.. So another gal say yes lo.. At first I just say yes lo (joker).. But end up the guy hold my hand and he get a bit sad after that.. (It so obvious that he like that gal lo.. and both keep denied..)
There also a chit-chat with my form teacher.. (Something she commented about me)
1. Piercing my ear
2. Last finger is long
3. Wearing drop pants
But then there nothing much lo..
Tomorrow another day will be later come home.. I have P?? shooting and need to wear BB Full-uniform lo.. Beside that we start at 2.30 and my last lesson end at 2.25 lo.. really crazy for me to change in 5 minutes lo..

15 May 2005
Today school as per normal.. Nothing terrify nor nothing happy..

For us Sec 3, we have attended 3 Normal Academic lectures, by 3 different subjects. The first was more to CME moral integrity.. Mr Neivelle Tan known as the Iron Man compelling true account of a young offender.. His recounts organized brawls, extortions, knifings, gang retaliations, police man-hunts, caning, prison fights, break-outs that had already marked his life by the time he was 18. Above all, he is a triumphant story that offers hope, faith and empowerment to those who face despair or have been felled by adversity. It is ultimately a story of how one man literally stumbles upon God and the transforming experience that fellow, radically changing the course of his life and that of everyone who crosses his path.
Next, a subject that more or less more people are worry? STD (Sexually Transmitted Diseases). About how can we get such diseases by just have one sex.. and even oral sex will cause STD..
Fellow by a tedious subject - POA.. On how to save money..!!! At the end to me no used.. As half way through the talk SL have to leaves for the NYAA community services for the Sec 2.
After going with the sec 2, I still have SC meeting and Stand and Deliver.. Instead of going for SC, I went to SnD.. But then seated down there doing nothing as I was nothing acting and making props only in-charge of music.. So must well read the book I just brong.. But then to tired.. Sleep a bit in the air-condition room.
After wish is about 4.45 pm and go home..

For tomorrow we will be staying much later.. And also we will know out result for all the tests.. Hopefully I can pass at least 1 subject.. May God Bless me and frenz..

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Much Closer look 

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14 May 2005
THE DAYS AFTER EXAMS..

It times to commemorate the end of Mid-Year Examination (M-Y-E). Yah!!
After MYE my first apprehensive is on Monday and Tuesday where we are going to get back all our test papers. Beside that we Student Leader (SL) were told to plan the coming Sec 2 NYAA camp.. And surprisingly I was in the planning committee which I dont expected, as I used to be the logistic team.. Next.. On coming Monday I will be the person who going to rises the School flag.. (By right is the National flag but I request to change it as I am new to that, but did not expected that Mondays need to sing School anthem so will rise at differently) Hopefully I will remember not to rises together.. If not…

So before all this, I give myself a trip of wonderful in life.. So I went to Cathay Cineleisure. At 5+ I went out of my house and arrive at Somerset at 6.15. Walking in a slow and freedom movement to Cineleisure. Thinking to wait for one of my frenz from 6.30 wait until 7.45 and he did not appear.. So glum. While I am waiting I also saw my Primary School frenz, she was almost cant recognize me, but then she still approach me with her fanatic look. (So she was pretty then before.. wow.. my big eyes was with her.. almost lost.. look like much better then 302 lei..). Waited for 1 hour 45 minutes never see him, so sad. Then I walk from Cineleisure to Plaza Singapura (PS). Just about few meter away I saw my school classmate, he was with his parents maybe shopping for things that going to bring back to China. Which he going this coming Monday.

And so, go PS straight take the lift to the seventh levels.. Go in see any familiar faces, unfortunately no one 1 know. Then suddenly my frenz SMS me where am I, want to go dinner together.. And he was already on the way to town.. So, I meet him lo.. No choices. While I was waiting, I saw someone I know through internet. But then I did not chat with him, as he with a group of his friend, which I dont know them. When I frenz reach PS, it already 8.45 and we went to eat dinner at the fifth level at kopitiam (I think spell wronly). He orders fish and chip + Malay food + desert. After eating we went to the seventh level again and he go play and I watch.

Tanjong Pagar and went to find his frenz at Legend Pub House.. (This my first time going pub with my frenz, so a bit scare).(and for me to go in is actually illegal due to underage) The place was very smokez place.. And crowded with a lot of peoples. I notices that the table beside me was 4 guys and they have very close actions together. Once when I glance at them. One of the guy with his friendly smile cheers with me. My whole body stunned and only able to knock my head forgot to cheers back and quickly turned back to our table. We also play big 2 “da lao er” to entertain ourselves and also to get so fun of enjoyment. In additional, as a form of punishment we have to drink alcohols if we lost the game.. I lost 4 rounds and drank 3+ glasses of alcohols and started to feel unwell, high and feel like vomiting.. So I ran to the toilet but the two toilet was waited by ppl and the bad gate is open so I go out and try to throw out something but nothing throw out at first.. So I went back, unluckily when I went out someone did close the door so I need to use the front gate then.. And I try to lye my head in the table for about 10 mins.. After which I feel like vomiting again.. My frenz saw it and quickly pass me a empty cup.. And.. All the thing I ate have throw out and full up the cup.. OMG!! It so Yuk and even left some stain in my cap and short.. After clearing out we went home, and I went to his house.. Went reaches there it already 2 am.. So reach there take a bath and sleep..

The next morning wake up at noon, take a bath, eat lunch and went to Bishan and find his frenz there.. And also go walk walk at Junction 8. And at around 6+ he went back home and I go town again.. went to The Heeren walk and see some thing.. But nothing to much and walk down to PS, on my way I saw a net surfing at Le Meridian Singapore and able to know one new frenz who seated beside me.. After an hour chatting online still unable to find frenz and i go off lei.. Walk to PS and walk for a few minutes and went home..

On Sunday, 15 May 2005, thousands of communities around the world will come together in solidarity to light candles and remember those who have been affected by HIV/AIDS. Organisations, individuals, governments, and faith-based communities coordinate the local observances. The International AIDS Candlelight Memorial Campaign, a program of the Global Health Council, is a 12-month mobilisation project that encourages communities and individuals around the world to become more involved with HIV/AIDS work through participation in a worldwide memorial. The Memorial takes place every year on the third Sunday of May.

The Memorial has helped communities hold a forum honouring the memory of those lost to AIDS, show support for those living with HIV/AIDS, fight stigma associated with the disease, and mobilise individuals with the common goal of responding to the local impact of HIV/AIDS.

Each year, Memorials take place in over 4,500 communities in more than 93 countries. The International AIDS Candlelight Memorial has become the largest grassroots AIDS event in the world.
 

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11 May 2005
In-between the POA paper 2 I have a terrible twinge headache.
Is this call the STRESS during the exam period?
But I dont think so, as yesterday night I already feel I having headache. Past few nights I have not been sleeping snugly. Almost 2+ am then able to sleep(ZzzZZz). Don’t know what going wrong with me.
After POA paper 2 I still got CME. I cant think any fantastic ideal to write. My head was so painful. Luck it was just an one hour paper and never faint. Thanx God.
When I went out of the class room, my friends pass me acknowledgement form. It about the Sec 2 NYAA Student Leadership Camp at St. John Island. About 20 more days to the camp. And again last minute thing. Luckily this was on weekdays, so that I still can go town on week end.
On the other hand Mr Liu, this year BB NDP instructed have excluding me as part of the NDP rehearsal. (If you scroll down you will see the e-mail. Just click on it and you will about to view it.)
“While as you read you should noe that i have been "kick out" from the NDPto me it a good news lo..So that I can go town and meet ppl every Saturday lei..very happy and must be happyhowever, it mean I wont be able to get and National Event badge, in addition to that is the Founder Man badge
sad
doleful”

NDP
Got back the reply for the in-charge for this year BB NDP
while as you read you should noe that i have been "kick out" from the NDP
to me it a good news lo..
so that i can go town and meet ppl every saturday lei..
very happy and must be happy
however, it mean i wont be able to get and National Event badge, in addition to that is the Founder Man badge
sad
doleful 

9 May 2005
The Story...

Its not Sunday everyday, and more often than not, we find ourselves falling for a person that does not reciprocate the feeling. So is it ever possible to find a partner that you love and s/he loves you back?

My ex was a terrific person, both Love's me (I guess) and I had feelings for them, I tried my best to love back in return, but it does not seems to work that way , plus I start to feel pressured when things progress too fast, I didn't want to hurt any of us too much so I chose to let things go, and even the day I suggest the break up, he made it so easy on me, I was really sorry that I hurt my ex’s , but I didn't want to waste their time when they could find someone much better than me.

Now I guess its my time to be hurt, I've fallen for someone that I knew could never love me back, but I still chose to love him despite whatever, I feel miserable knowing that the feeling is only one way, but I guess I wun be able to get over him until I find another person and hopefully that person can love me back...

It seems getting into relationship is not easy especially.... when u meet some1 that u like but other parties is not ready to committed.

Sometimes in a relationship, we cannot be 斤斤计较 (calculative), by all means love somebody, but don't expect he would return the affection in the same level / amount. Like that, one would lead a more satisfying life.

It come to my attention on Saturday Night or rather Sunday Morning where one of the girl’s ask me for stead.. When I reply her.. NO!! As we dont build up any chemistry in both of us, juz want to go steady.. Ridiculous.. Beside that.. She also said that if not we try out for one months first.. If not suitable then we break lo.. (In your own opinion do you that that she trying to find someone to spare her?) Even thought I may look a bit playboy but I want to be serious with stead..

I remember I read a forum, why human go steady and break off so fast; the reason was.. “As teens think that they need to have more experiences in BGR, before they find their true love ones; and so they stead more then what they thought” (this to me was such a
Humiliation, I dont even there to think about it to much..)

After 1 week break, we return to out academic Mid-Year Examination (MYE).. I would rather say disgusting, Math Paper 1 and Chemistry.. But I think to me still okay lo.. What I can remember was, most of the questions I was able to answer.. Getting a pass should not be a problem ba..

Today the flaky boy in my class today pierce his upper ear..
And I was almost been caught by putting ear stick.. My class guyz was like going again me.. Anyway its okay de.. We are still classmates and frenz..
End here.. Cya.. all the best for your exams.. God Bless..

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My First Photoshop Art All Done It Today, 6 May 2005
Pls Do Make Comments About It..Thanx.. 

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Overall, The reasult is much better then last year..

5 May 2005
Started your revision??
Today I just started my revision for my coming Mid-Year Exam.. It sound like I very confident to go to the exam hall without any knowledge.. Anyway I have set a very low target for this exam..

English: 5
Mother Tongue: 5
Mathematics: 2 (But I think not even 3 I will be getting)
Additional Mathematics: Under grade
Combine Science (Physic & Chemistry): 3
Combine Humanities (Geography & Social Studies): 3
Principles Of Accounts: 4

No 1 are expected.. Simply because the usual math are no longer easy.. As it a O level math and I was just the border line case so.. I don’t think I will do very well.. Getting a 2 is like I am hopping to much.. But anyway I will still try my best to do what I can.. Today manage to completed my Social Studies Notes.. Spend about 3.5 solid hours.. And also do some revision on Add math (another 2.5 solid hours) and found that most of the question in past year exam paper was like hell.. So difficult.. Almost all the questions need to refer to the notes..

I kinda admire this photo, It was the very first photo we had. We took it in the train on our way to Woodlands. He wanted to fetch me home by bus 168 and he did after I force him. He gave me a good impression that time. That was real good I tell ya. Both of us were not feeling well, his was sinusities whereas mine was mild trachea infection. 12 days of love story ended today, 2nd of May 2005. Why? I force him to do things that he do not like without his respect. I really hope he will find someone better than me. I really hope he does ...

Today no time to comment about this.. I will do it maybe tomorrow.. If I can..

4 May 2005
I not THICK skin But it just the fact..

In fact I just found that I am getting myself into trouble in school and out side school..

FOR WHAT??
Relationships / people chasing after me / feelings for me etc.

Why I Said TROUBLE?
The person who have the act in me are those who I dont have the chemistry with them.. I just can not get the affinity..

Why?
Simply because I still waiting for someone, since after declare to HER in 1 January 2005 however I so long have not saw her already.. Beside that I dont even know will my perseverance remain? Or I have GAME OVER??.. 4 years since Primary 6, it not really a long period of time but it the effect to show her.. (Just for those who know her, her code number was 302..)
But now is the trouble.. I dont dare to get closer to much girls in my class.. Only those few which I always with.. Are still remain.. But if one day they dont want to mix with me.. It mean I going to DROP DEAD..

I Just driving myself to despair..
Even thought I have been praying tremendously(deeply) for relationship but it dont work for me if there wasnt any chemistry in it.. All I want is just to have friends or as for the most, buddies.. Unless someone who can over take 302 in my mind..

Hope if you have fall into this categories you wont be heartache.. Just remember there is someone better in future.. Just keep steady for yourself and he/she will appear to you one day..

On the other had, I also found that I have been flirting around and I given myself a title “MR PLAY BOY”
so how far do you agree.. Just msg me in email, tag, msn etc.

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This what I ate for my Lunch.. Poor thing.. But still better then nothing la.. 

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Only able to poke in the ear stick on the 2nd night after piercing 

3 May 2005
Blessing
After 3 days of break (Saturday, Sunday & Monday) it back to school as per normal again..
In the morning assemble the flag was raise half way to commemorate Singapore People President Mr Kim Wee as a form of respect.. This practice will be carry on till this Friday..
Next.. Pierce my ear is one of the highlight for me today.. Every seen to be very shock to see me piercing my left ear.. Beside that wearing ear stick in school is definitely a wrong habit in school.. On the other hand.. I was extremely fortunate not to be caught today.. However I need about 7 days to fully recover from my piercing.. So pray hard that I wont be caught for the next few days or even weeks before the school close.. (MAY GOD BLESS ME)

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JustPierceItYesterday... 

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XiaoYi&Derek 

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MickeyMouseSawAtTheHeeren 

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Orchard Cineleisure